Wednesday, December 19, 2012

Jordan is cool infinity

We're celebrating our second anniversary this week.

Jordan's my best friend. He does a lot of stuff for me. He's my househusband and breadwinner. He cuddles me when I'm sad, and talks about smart stuff when I feel like it. He encourages me to exercise and eat good food even though it's not very fun sometimes. The best thing of all, though, is that he loves me unconditionally, encourages me to be myself, and supports me in the things that are important to me.

Here's to a great third year of marriage, best friend.

Monday, December 10, 2012

Guest post adventure!

I guest posted over at Empowering LDS Women, so you should read it. (I announced it already on my other blog, but probably not everyone reads that)

Depression. Meds? Buh...

If you've ever dealt with a long-term illness and figuring out what meds help you feel better, you know what a tricky process it can be. In addition to the antidepressant I've been on since March, I've added another one, and I've added an anti-migraine medicine. The migraine pills don't have any side effects except for making my fingers tingly, but the new antidepressant makes me so. Drowsy. When I wake up in the morning, I feel so sleepy I just wanna go back to bed! Also, all that ridiculous sleepiness puts me in the worst brain fog ever. I'm pretty bad at talking right now. Just ask Jordan. It takes me like ten seconds to respond to a question. So... my life is pretty interesting.

Monday, December 3, 2012

Everybody writes a self-serving reflection post in December. I'm just beating everybody to it.

We went to the Christmas devotional yesterday.

Proof that I go out in public sometimes. In real clothes, not pajamas.

It was fun. I liked that it was short, and I also liked that it wasn't boring. It also helps that I love Presidents Monson, Eyring, and Uchtdorf so much. I wish they could all be my grandpas.

Also, Sunday School yesterday was great because I didn't go. Heh. Instead, I sat in the gym and talked to my friend, Eniss. I consider her my other mom. She's the nicest, least judgmental, most beautiful person I've ever met. Every time I talk to her I leave feeling a little bit better and more hopeful about life.

So. This has been the weirdest year ever. I feel like I've simultaneously been doing nothing and everything. I probably attended 30% of my required classes last semester, but I've never put so much effort into getting passing grades for graduation. I still feel a mixture of pride and shame when I think of last semester. I did it. I graduated, with everything stacked against me. But school has never been hard for me. Ever. My GPA last semester is just... embarrassing.

Sometimes I feel like all I do is watch tv, but other times I feel like I'm learning the most freakin amazing things in the entire world (usually not from tv, but I do watch smart things sometimes). I'm starving for knowledge. I want to know everything.

And my Church attendance? So spotty, so unreliable, it's unreal. But I've never been more interested in the gospel, studied it with more attention, prayed harder, or searched with such intensity for answers.

And for some reason, I've suddenly decided this year to be super open with people about my incredibly personal experiences and my opinions on incredibly controversial things. 17-year-old Andria would probably have had a panic attack about that. But 23-year-old Andria feels pretty good about it.

So I guess this means I'm... growing up? Is this what growing up feels like?